Are you one who has been plagued by despair and hopelessness, by self loathing and wanting to die? Know that you are not alone. No one understands what you are going through do they? That’s not true. I understand. God understands. And demons understand as well. You are a precious, precious child and you have been under attack by unseen spirits that have most likely come into your life from birth. They can be sent away.
There is hope!
Have you had a rough time lately with these demons? Have they been pushing you into that same old hole of depression and telling you that nothing is going to change? They are liars!! But I know what it is like my friend, those lying voices are very hard to disagree with aren’t they?
I will not repeat the things they say to your heart here, they are liars and bullies! But your Saviour is Jesus Christ, yes the demons hate Jesus more than they hate you, they would turn you away from Jesus every time your minds go near thinking of Him.
Do you push Jesus away? Have you been angry at God for abandoning you? Do you think God hates you? I bet you do. I know the same lies as you do. Do you realise that it is totally unnatural to think these things? This is the thinking of demons and their master Satan. It is not normal or logical or reasonable to push away someone Who has the ability to help you. Only Jesus can save you, but these thoughts keep your heart closed to Him. Unlike demons, Jesus will not make you come to Him. He will not force you to ask Him for help. Demons bombard your mind for hours on end until you speak their words of death and hopelessness over your life and everything you have done in life. But Jesus only ever offers you His hand, Jesus says to your heart, Will you take My hand? Will you allow me to love you and hold you? I will help you, but you must come to Me.”
One time Jesus asked me, ”Do you want to live?” Sounds like a silly question to most people. But to those who have battled this demon it is not. The spirit of death has for so long tormented you that you at times truly want to die. But my friend Death is not the answer! I told Jesus, “Yes of course I want to live if there is a purpose for living!” That “if”reveals a lot about my thinking doesn’t it? What I was saying to God was Unless you give me a purpose or something to DO that I will like doing then what is the point of living!? This is like a toddler throwing a temper tantrum to be able watch his favourite cartoon on the television.
What is it that sends you into a spiral of depression and despair. What is the trigger? Whatever the trigger is, it is some kind of thinking and thoughts that you are in agreement with. Yet those thoughts are based upon lies. In my case, being unemployed, in debt, not in a church for 5 years, no friends, ostracised from all family members, it is easy to think I have no purpose in life. There is a deep lie in me that says unless I am doing something useful then I am worthless as a person. But whoever said that our worth as people is based upon what we do? You are worth the life blood of the holy Son of God! You precious friend are the reason Jesus was willing to come from heaven to Earth and to die on the Cross.
Long before you ever could do anything good for the world He loved you and planned your life and came to ensure that you had a way to come to the Father. You–Your spirit–your heart is from God Himself. That is why you are valuable, not by what you can do. Do we think that God loves an able bodied person more than someone who is a quadriplegic? Before Jesus had done one miracle God spoke in an audible voice from heaven – This is My beloved Son in whom I am well pleased.

Matt 3:17 nkjv This is my beloved Son, in whom I have found my delight. Darby

You are His creation, He brought you into the world for a purpose. But before you can walk in the things He has ordained for you, you must come to a place of trust and surrender to HIS LOVE FOR YOU. Before Jesus did anything noteworthy, He received the Father’s love for him. Right now the Devil does not want you to receive anything from God–especially His LOVE FOR YOU. But you are loved son, daughter, you are loved by the Father of your spirit right now!
Always have been loved by Him. Receive that love.
1Jn 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him. 1Jn 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment . But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 1Jn 4:19 We love Him because He first loved us.
God’s love for you will never end so do not end your life being pushed by the enemy. He hates you, do you think that his thoughts of hopelessness leading to death will solve anything? No they won’t solve a thing. But God’s love will!! His love, Jesus Himself, will chase away every fear and doubt and win your heart if you let Him.
Take the noose from around your neck and be free!
Tell Jesus you need Him. Tell Him you are sorry for pushing Him away and for agreeing with the Liar. Ask Him to deliver you from all your fears.

Psa 34:6 This poor man cried out, and the LORD heard him, And saved him out of all his troubles. Psa 34:7 The angel of the LORD encamps all around those who fear Him, And delivers them. Psa 34:8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!

The woundings in your heart have allowed the demons to find entry and lodge there. Ask Jesus to heal those wounds. Forgive all those who have hurt you and forgive your ancestors for any involvement in the occult or Freemasonry. Contact me or someone to pray with you. You are loved and can be free from this torment and death forever, you are made to live, not die!
Enter into 2016 with hope my friend.
Originally posted 31st Dec 2015