Are you one who has been plagued by despair and hopelessness, by self loathing and wanting to die? Know that you are not alone. No one understands what you are going through do they? That’s not true.
I will not repeat the things they say to your heart here, they are liars and bullies! But your Saviour is Jesus Christ, yes the demons hate Jesus more than they hate you, they would turn you away from Jesus every time your minds go near thinking of Him.
Do you push Jesus away? Have you been angry at God for abandoning you? Do you think God hates you? I bet you do. I know the same lies as you do. Do you realise that it is totally unnatural to think these things? This is the thinking of demons and their master Satan. It is not normal or logical or reasonable to push away someone Who has the ability to help you. Only Jesus can save you, but these thoughts keep your heart closed to Him. Unlike demons, Jesus will not make you come to Him. He will not force you to ask Him for help. Demons bombard your mind for hours on end until you speak their words of death and hopelessness over your life and everything you have done in life.
One time Jesus asked me, ”Do you want to live?” Sounds like a silly question to most people. But to those who have battled this demon it is not. The spirit of death has for so long tormented you that you at times truly want to die. But my friend Death is not the answer! I told Jesus, “Yes of course I want to live if there is a purpose for living!” That “if”reveals a lot about my thinking doesn’t it? What I was saying to God was Unless you give me a purpose or something to DO that I will like doing then what is the point of living!? This is like a toddler throwing a temper tantrum to be able watch his favourite cartoon on the television.
Matt 3:17 nkjv This is my beloved Son, in whom I have found my delight. Darby
You are His creation, He brought you into the world for a purpose. But before you can walk in the things He has ordained for you, you must come to a place of trust and surrender to HIS LOVE FOR YOU. Before Jesus did anything noteworthy, He received the Father’s love for him. Right now the Devil does not want you to receive anything from God–especially His LOVE FOR YOU. But you are loved son, daughter, you are loved by the Father of your spirit right now!
Always have been loved by Him. Receive that love.
1Jn 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him. 1Jn 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment . But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 1Jn 4:19 We love Him because He first loved us.
God’s love for you will never end so do not end your life being pushed by the enemy. He hates you, do you think that his thoughts of hopelessness leading to death will solve anything? No they won’t solve a thing. But God’s love will!! His love, Jesus Himself, will chase away every fear and doubt and win your heart if you let Him.
Take the noose from around your neck and be free!
Tell Jesus you need Him. Tell Him you are sorry for pushing Him away and for agreeing with the Liar. Ask Him to deliver you from all your fears.
Psa 34:6 This poor man cried out, and the LORD heard him, And saved him out of all his troubles. Psa 34:7 The angel of the LORD encamps all around those who fear Him, And delivers them. Psa 34:8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
The woundings in your heart have allowed the demons to find entry and lodge there. Ask Jesus to heal those wounds. Forgive all those who have hurt you and forgive your ancestors for any involvement in the occult or Freemasonry. Contact me or someone to pray with you. You are loved and can be free from this torment and death forever, you are made to live, not die!